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1.00 tengah hari. Matahari memancar tegak atas kepala. Kipas siling berpusing perlahan menyejukkan bilik kecil itu.

"Im, apa rasa jadi depressed ni eh?"

Im yang sedang menyiapkan assignmentnya tersentak dengan pertanyaan Chad. Dia cuba kawal ekspresi wajahnya untuk nampak cool.

"Why in a sudden?"

"Entah. Sebab aku memang teringin nak tahu. What it feels like feeling unwanted? and why in the world they took their own life to end the pain? Teruk sangat ke sampai act macam orang yang takde iman?"
Chad cakap dalam nada geram sambil scroll timeline twitter.
Im senyum nipis. teringat kisah dia yang pernah depressed dulu. Alhamdulillah dia perlahan - lahan recover.

"Kita takkan pernah faham unless we're in their shoes, bro. Some ppl claimed that they feels lacking; as for example- gemuk or kulit gelap. That aren't it. Deppression is more than just insecurities. More than even mere anxiety." Im senyum nipis.

"You talked like you have been depressed."

Yes I was

"Dah lah. Cakap panjang lebar pun we did not solve the problem, right?" Malas nak ungkit kisah lama.

I wish more ppl understand what anxiety feels like.
 What it feels when you are blaming yourself over little things.
Overthinking about the possibilities if they just do nothing about it.
All about the things that went wrong.
 What it feels when you vow to yourself that you won't repeat the same mistakes but ended up regretting them over again.

Semua orang tak sama. Just remember that